I am thrilled we are going into spring! It is my favorite season. Easter at our house really set the tone for the new season too. We had a beautiful holiday with our children and grandchildren, and took everyone out to dinner. I am looking forward to taking long walks with my husband on Sunday mornings through our neighborhood.
Both my husband and myself have had to work very long hours and have brought a lot of stress home. It's hard to criticize our jobs because we both are very grateful for having very good jobs and the ability to provide well for our family. I could never say thank you enough to my husband for going above and beyond to take care of us. He does a lot of extra things in order to make our lives easier. He is the most honorable and committed man I have ever known. Our children are blessed to have that security and role model. I found my really not liking the work I was doing. Many things contributed to that, but the real root cause was that I had slowly climbed up the management ladder and ended up with my life revolving around my job. And I was not OK with that. I want to like my job, love my friends, and live for my family. So I started a new job. Fingers crossed, so far I love it. I am trying to be cautious in my optimism.
We have a new grand baby on the way, due in December. I will go slowly with details because it is very early, and I do not want to jinx anything. Next Christmas will be exciting with a newborn, a 1 year old and a 2 year old. Timing sucks. With my husband's birthday on 12/14, granddaughter's on 12/17, and mine and the grandson's on 12/25, we really could use a birthday in the summer. But, boy or girl, we are ready! This grandma thing is the greatest thing ever invented!
I have a lot of people living in this house still. 5 of our children and the 2 grands, plus us. This is it stressful. I am glad we are able to help our kids, but it seems our lives never get easier, and my expectation was that would at some point. Being a parent since I was 18, I was looking forward to a time when I lived without kids in my home. We realized a while back that we would have our Autistic son maybe forever. But because we have a big enough house, when things get tough, or hey just do not have a plan, they come here. Not a lot of gratefulness either. Some do not understand the concept that if they want to do what ever they please, they have to live in their own house. I hate conflict, and believe we deserve a drama free home. There is a line between helping and holding them back from becoming self sufficient adults. We are seriously considering down sizing our house to have limits on how we can help grown kids.
Other news... Last Prom for us is next weekend. Or last one until the grand kids are in high school. You wouldn't believe how many homecomings and Proms we have done! Hubby and I have tickets to see my boyfriend Prince in a small venue, here in Denver, in May. I. Am. So. Excited! We are trying to plan a trip for our wedding anniversary in June. I expect it will be pretty local and over a weekend since we are starting the planning so late. Found out (for the millionth time) that the mother of my step daughter once again over stepped her boundaries on that rare occasion one of the girls was visiting her. She allowed the 18 year old to get a tattoo on her back without even consulting us. We noticed it while Prom dress shopping. I am sure she and our daughter think she is the coolest mom ever. This happens over and over. I have SO MUCH I'd like to say on that, but will not. I have been seriously impressed with our daughter that just had a baby in Dec. She has mellowed out a lot and is a great mom. The last few years with her has been a challenge to say the least.
Among my blessing are that I have a strong and solid marriage. We do not turn on each other in tough times. We are both patient when life is kicking the other one's butt. He is my rock, my BFF, and my comfort zone. These years are just flying by and at times we are holding on for dear life. But I never question his love for me and I know we are destined to grow old together.
Today I plan to enjoy every moment and feel all my blessings. I have a huge weight off of my shoulders and need to make additional life changes to continue a positive journey.