Regardless of how other people view or think about me...I like me. I believe I am completely normal, which means I have lot of flaws and great gifts, like the majority people.
It took years to get to the me I like. My path has a crap load of mistakes and lesson learned the hard way. Completely normal. I do not have an extreme personality. Have you ever watched reality shows like 'Wife Swap'? It never ceases to amaze me about how they continue to find people who live an extreme life- religion, organization, hobbies, etc. I can't apply for those shows. I wouldn't have enough drama to attract viewers.
I don't think I deserve any trophies for 'Exceptional Parent', but I believe I have done a good job. I finally realized that you can't always judge the parenting by the finished project. I learned some tricks, like, don't listen to other parents who say their children never had any bad behavior, lied, or embarrassed them. Those parents are either in denial or heavily medicated. I also learn that there is no 'end of the rainbow' moment. You don't ever complete the task.
I finally got the whole relationship thing. I thought I would NEVER get it. I take responsibility for my short comings and I committed my heart, mind, body,and time to my marriage. I take in and find joy in the mundane moments that are what is the glue of a marriage. I finally put the baggage down, and used that energy to practice patience.
I pushed myself to reach higher. I re-evaluate my life and my happiness with it routinely. I give as much to myself as I give to others. I have maintained a healthy sense of humor through the rough patches. I inspire others and find a connection to almost every person I meet. I have no problem apologizing. I am more comfortable in my own skin. I will always strive to be healthier, but I know what about me attracts others. I take pride and have confidence in my skills. I don't think I initially take criticism well, but in the end I do listen and try to see if I could a better me.
As I think about who I have been and where I have been, I know I am a better Laura than 20-25 years ago. I don't need someone else to tell me that I am a good person. I can do that myself. And being my harshest critic, I can trust the source of the compliments.
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